*why?*

i hate myself. bigtime.

i have recently proven through studies that i am a certified lovefool and i cannot forgive myself for that.

why, why do i still hang around him when all i know of what i'll get is all heartaches and pains, why am i always happy whenever i get to see him, at the same time weep deep inside? why do i react, really? i do not overreact, to tell you the truth; but why do i still react?

why do i think of this particular person, who has broken my heart to pieces time and time again, who can be the most infatuated, irresponsible, irrational, annoying, inconsiderate, insensitive boy on the face of the planet? how many times do i have to hang my heart in the air?

and why do i hate this girl that i have grown to love all the while? i hate her, really... really, really, really.


















dearest pEz,
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i miss you. i miss you. i still love you. damn it.


~*princessa

*whew, repost*

Cool With You

Late last night
I was goin through some old things
When i Saw a picture of you and my best friend
It reminded me of day when you were mine
You had a way that always let me hear with a smile
I want those sweet days back agian
Cause baby

[Chorus:]

Its sunny day
But you're not around
That dog gone rain might as well be pouring down
Its such a shame
Cause your heart's on the ground
Just wanna be cool with you again

Sometimes I sit By the fire and reminisce
About the time we spent infront of it
And that old flame will never be the same
Until you come back and rekindle it
I just wanna share my heart with you again
Cause babe

[Chorus]

I fall asleep at night
And often see you here
In my dreams
Holding me
But then I wake up and I realize that you're
Not here with me
It hurts so much
I gotta have you back babe

[Chorus x2]

lemme see.. at first a weirdo, then the guitar man, then the weirdo... damn it. i'm sticking to the pEz thingie.

miss you pEz, damn you. *sob*
~*princessa

*why oh why, part ii*

Bakit Part Two
Mayonnaise

Lumuha ka ng nagiisa, nakadungaw sa buwan.
Lumilipad ang isip mo,nakasabit sa ulap.

Ngunit bakit, pinilit, kung ayaw ko'ng masaktan?

Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha
ang katulad ko na parang timang,
at 'di mo parin maintindihan.

Malayo ang pagtitig mo, dala ng hangin.
Akala ko ay pwede pa na umasa sa iyo.

Ngunit bakit, pinilit, kung ayaw ko'ng masaktan?

Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha
ang katulad ko na parang timang,
at 'di mo parin maintindihan.

O bakit ba, pag wala ka na, ako'y kulang

Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha
ang katulad ko na parang timang,
at 'di mo parin maintindihan.

and now i am dead seriously thinking of fighting for pEz back. honest. help me out, puhleeease? *sob*

love the world.
~*princessa

*paky0o princessa, for being ever so stupid*

When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
And when it's over
That's the time you're in my heart again

And when you go, go, go, go
I know it never ends
It never ends

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that he used to bring
All the songs that he used to sing
All his favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

I'm missing you
I never knew how much he'd loved me
I'm missing you
I never knew how much you meant to me *always knew, you never did*

I need you
And when you go, go, go, go
I know
It never ends
Never ends

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window

All the things that he used to bring
All the songs that he used to sing
All his favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

I'm missing you
You never said you were pretending
I'm missing you
You'd feel the same just come back to me
I need you
And when you go, go, go, go
I know
It never ends
It never ends

When it's over
Can I still come over *well, can YOu?*(And when you go...)
And when it's over
Is it really over
When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that he used to bring
All the songs that he used to sing
All his favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that he used to bring
All the songs that he used to sing
All his favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window...


i'm missing you. *stupid mode*
~*princessa

*rainmaker. princess. temptress. stupid girl.*

today is the day when the demented princessa officially calls herself dumb. haha, stupid, stupid, stupid nikki. and today, as the horizon of realization comes into clarity, the rain purs. why is it that the rain pours whenever she cries, or whenever she is uncertain of things, or how unfair the world is as she thinks and lives. she realizes how the world can be unfair, and how some people can be unfair; and no matter how much tears you shed or how many alimonies and reasons and kill-bill-style moves you make, you can never get everything you wanted.

the princessa's conscience was interviewed a few minutes ago and here's what it had to say:

princessa, i hate you. i hate you for being so weak, so dumb, such a lovefool, such a butthead and a sucker for trusting the world too much and still thinking that they can be good to you as you can never have the trust in yourself. also in convincing yourself that you are the meanest being in the world but noooo... you aren't! f*** you princessa. and yet i still stand as your conscience.

oooh... and now what does she do? she still doesn't know.

and yet the 95 percent went to the opposition, the 5 percent went to the defense. how can you ever be so stupid?


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~*princessa

*monster unleashed*

weeheehee.. today's the first day of exams. does it make any difference from the district exams? duhh. and i really haven't prepared myself for it. double duhh.

and for a split second in a day's time, i missed bLeh. damn it. stupid little lovefool. well, at least i DID admit it. weeheehee. it's as if the nerdies did lose one person, one arm, one part of almost everything. weeheehee. stupid. weeheehee, weird. am i losing it? are we losing him? is he losing it?

at least i know he was sorry. weeheehee... *demented mode* he said so! he did! he did! damn it, he said sorry! *sob*

am i missing the same person here as when the first sign of angina pectoris appeared?

hoping, hoping still, hope not.
~*princessa

*dah day*

i hate this day. damn, i am confused.
~*princessa

*honow...*

this is the first time ever in the face of the weenie school of dPhS that i have been branded as hangin... uish.. may pet name na akooo! *sarcastic* i hate the way she entered that room and made such a sickening face.. i hate the way she acted during class when she started to act like a bratty, bitchy bitch when we started practicing the part for the journ event tomorrow... when she practically, indirectly humiliated me at the corridor near the staircase... she can be such a brat... duhh.. and i thought she was good! nice! quiet! that her face went with her decorum! she's sooo cheap! *headbang* *headbang*

and tomorrow's the big day.. oooh... so filipiniana.

we'll see what she'll do next.
insecurity? fear? wth is she up to? soem brats are so cheap.

~*princessa

*smile-again?ü*

Just a Smile
Barbie Almalbis

I wanna tell you everything,
Easily won't you come up closer
I want to, hear you breathe

I'm walking down the street
I'm lost at sea
But out of the crowd you smile
And you're all i see

You make me feel like i
Can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
With just a smile
Just a smile

I wanna meet you someday soon
'cause i know you in my mind
Everything will be different
When i have you right beside

You can take the whole wide world
With your boyish charm
But even as you pull me close
I won't just stay in your arms

You make me feel like i
Can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
With just a smile

Well it's for you and everyone
I thought i've searched the world in vain
Now look at me
And the search is done
We will never be the same
Not the same.

You make me feel like i
Can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
With just a smile

Oh you make me feel like i
Can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky
When you save the day
With just a smile

Just a smile, a smile
Just a smile.ü

damn, i think i'm crazy already.ü
~*princessa

*i couldn't help it... it's all your fault*

today's a day that has passed in which i have proven myself the nicest, most forgiving, most optimistic, most stupid princessa alive. i have sung my heart out, lost my voice over an after-lunch drink of gulaman and gruel, expected, became happy, expected, became sober, became happy, annoyed, became happy, got myself frustrated.

talk about mikka's stepmother... *rawr* boy, was she a snub snob! *gasps*

i wish i haven't had my heart broken... time and time again this always happens; proving myself stupid for the nth time now.

i wish i haven't had invited...
oh, how i wish.

he didn't come anyway.
but i wish he didn't promise.

damn it.



in fairy tales, the princesses kiss the frogs, and the frogs become princes. in real life, the princesses kiss the princes, and the princes turn into frogs.

from 'by the river piedra i sat down and wept'

*smile*

today.. lemme see.ü

sa loob-loob ko lang, kailangan kita.ü


you make me feel that i can get lost inside your eyes. i feel closer to the sky when you save the day with just a smile.ü

yeah, sa loob-loob ko lang, kailangan kita.ü

i think i'm plain demented.üüü
~*princessa

*have you ever*

this is so pathetic. am i missing? am i really feeling? damn it.
~*princessa