*someone like you*

in search of the perfect "someone like you" of nikki estrada's preference, life doesn't get any worse in that category. sigh.

she constantly tries, but never searches.

she looks back at "pasts", thinkina that maybe, roads familiar with are quite better than finding someone new in her life. right? wrong? she may never know.

and yet, looking back, there would've been so many recollections of mistakes made and lessons learned...

yet woouldn't it be nice to go back to the 'good old days', doesn't she think?

the present is marvelous, magnificent, bedazzling, enviable, indefinite. but the present is well, quite insubstantial. *sob*

*sob* *sob* waaaah! why does summer have to be this hard?! i can miss, but exactly WHO?

i'd really like a hug right now. *sob*
~*princessa

*come around*

we-hell, if it isn't the 23rd of april.Ü wasn't planning to indicate basically anything, but hey, it ain't my fault.ü here goes:

» today marks seventeen's 1st year as to making me a makeover product.ü that was a saturday, and the weather was just marvelous.Ü i was indeed queen for a day. haha. pinch me.Ü

» there are just some things in life that are just some of the ideas and principles not worth going back to, or so i may think. there are just instances wherein you'd suddenly think of the decisions you've made if they were really meant to be just like that; or maybe perhaps you just made that and fate just makes it's course.

i basically dunno if i made a mistake in my decision, or if i am about to. if i am really contented with my stance or i'm pseudo-dwelling in 'pseudo-bliss'. if i am really happy or not. if i'm wading in wonderland or not. if i buried happiness under the covers that i wouldn't get to distinguish it from the pillows and everything else. sigh, this is pathetic.

was it something wrong i did, or is it something i forgot for so long that it just had to take the starry night to make me realize how much i missed you. call me stupid, but i'd like to know how much and how far this goes... if it was just because of the summer fling fevers or whatever. *sigh* here goes summer fever again.


yes, i did miss you. just too scared to admit it in your face. i still do.
~*princessa

*fat summer*

this is mikka. haha. i miss mikka.


this is something else. don't get it? fine. it's mine anyway.Ü



miss.miss.miss. misinformed? haha.

love the world.
~*princessa

*summer icons*

and so anyway, there's just two default icons in my head and hope that it won't linger 'til i-dunno-when days. waha.ü

i miss mikka anak quite terribly. any way to take her back this coming schoolyear? oh, crap... *sob* and missing her makes a rain cloud quite well, PLURAL and making it into rain cloudS. stress the S.

summe is basically composed of wrong tans, hot days and mcdonald's gone wrong. nyaha.ü

oh my goodness. don't ask. loooong story. haha.ü hi mikka, remember the jif-jeep thang? who's this? *chuckles*

love the world.
~*princessa

*heat wave*

life, as i've said, doesn't get any better than this.ü

anyway, as the rules shall apply on holy week, two days abstinence on online wanton et ceteras to give way for some respect for well, the week. :p and shall i be this busy for the week? thank God, I won't be. hehe.Ü

bad thing about it all, i miss mikka more than i miss jeep... haha.ü but don't get me wrong, i do miss jeep, it's just that there's this sick certainty that i won't get to see mikka anymore... *sob*

love the world.
~*princessa

*summer feria*

anyway, nothing's all that fun during summers like these. not unless something that rad would come up. hehe.ü summer camp's not that exciting, and ballet classes ara a ho-hum nowadays.

i'd like the thrill of school life back, not that i'm acting nerdy or anything; it's just that life was well, a bit more functional. haha.

and the gist of writing is as dry as the summer heat wave. nothing beats it. and going online every evening lost its magic touch all of a sudden.

is it because of an unreturned favor, a feeling-stupid mode, or just plain tablado mode. weh? oh, yeah. *sigh* sometimes i wisehd i just didn't do the favor of this and that... is it being in an ingrata mode or what? *sniff* oh, i dunno... i just feel stupid, that's all. but that was making the grade for someone else.

pardon the princessa.

*the sh*t*

anyway, SOMEBODY OPENED MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT!!!

what the eff, how dumb! and you know what's shitty annoying, he posted something on the bulletin board which was waaaaaay too offensive on my part. what an asshole.

to you, yes YOU who plays innocent and doesn't give a shit if his life does work out fine.. I HATE YOU.

get lost.

pardon the princessa.

*bebymixx and pongania*

summer as i can assume is well, starting out to be just marvelous.Ü

» i have this evening urge to go online. hehe. reasons? secret.ÜüÜ

» summer is just well, sunny. haha.ü

» mikka anak may be leaving, moving and miles away, but she'll always be in my heart. am happy that she's truly happy with hardy a.k.a. ponga, for meanings, ask me yerself.Ü it's quite uplifting that i now trust hardy that he'll take good care of mikka anak, and that she's in super-good hands. heehee.Ü

wish you all the luck in this little world, mixx... you take care, ok? i won't always be there for you anymore, and you'll be more than miles away from me. but you know, i am so thankful that we were bound to meet each other in a small space of the earth called dqphs. i enjoyed your company so much, super. take care mikka, love you so much! *sob*

that was hot shit over there. thought i'd almost cry.
well mikka, i've already did. i'll miss you so much!

love the world!
~*princessa