*temporary madness..*

a few days ago i was feeling so emotional, that it was like a whirlpool of idiosyncrasies that can poop me out in a split sec. now, after yesterday between a fastfood dinner and swing discussions, i have decided to keep him around- for good, in a "friends-for-keeps" way. i promise.ü

now, i feel so , thank goodness.ü

~*princessa

*my angel, my sun up in the sky*

i have lots of things in my head right now; that is, if i still have my head. today is easter sunday. haha, as if. next, mommy wants me to quit on one thing: its either give up on the Parish Youth Ministry or YFC. i dunno if i did choose correctly, but i gave up on the ministry, making choir crumble. i just dunno how i'll break the news.

next, this unfillable space. blank. dent. nothing. gap. what do you get to call a missing part of you, anyway? its so hard to like, accept such a loss. as if a part of me has died out, not just physically but mentally and emotionally. i am stuck in this limbo that i don't even know when i'll ever recover. it hurts to move on; i mean, fuck those people who even "believe" in the theory that we should "move on" as soon as possible. as SOON as possible?! when the heck did "possible" become applicable in such cases? *sob*

i still miss. but i still have to continually hurt myself forgetting to do the things i have been accustomed to do for a year short of a few days. can i have my angel, my sun up in the sky back again? help me, God.

and i still love.

~*princessa

* dunno*

if i'll get over all this. it's like waiting for blog publishing that almost takes days.. haha, as if. it started almost yesterday, that i was supposed to end a letter with another old ending. and that somebody asked, "status quo?" i was supposed to answer again, weirdly. what a "perfect" day today! damn, i almost forgot! wow, i just hpoed i did forget it... and yes, i had to allot a time frame, AGAiN for the phone. gosh, does it take forever to get through all this?!

i still miss. damn, what pain.


~*princessa

*trying*

to move on to the new world. i am singing to the tune of j'Lo's "get right" haha, how not me. anyway, i am back on the dating scene. i have been to three dates since sunday, and again by next week. should i feel happy about that? weeell, maybe.

not that i am bragging or what, but is my status s0o obvious? argh. anyway, i am trying my best to get out of this labyrinth of arrangements. not waiting for 9:30 calls. or keeping quiet about it. or every movie watched together. that i only have to check two accounts instead of four. and that la salle would look dumber again. or i know somebody that could masquerade as a lasallian. or that my name does look cute in a word with a number. and that i am still alive. should i be happy? duuno.

i miss.

~*princessa

*trying still*

to recuperate. from the icu, i haven't gotten out to the emotional recovery room. haha, this is soo hard. as in.

we strolled the whole stretch of gateway after watching hitch. not the perfect way to split up, but i'm okay with that. i'll still miss him, the ever-famous if i ain't got you thingie, spongecola's jeepney, john mayer, evening calls, acoustics. i'll still have these crying fits long after.

in short, i'll miss jason inzon imperio.

~*princessa

*what's my age again?*

You Are 16 Years Old

16 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

lalalalalaaaa...ü
JaNi23

*girl thing*

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

oh, how me.Ü
JaNi23

*la bocca della verita*

have you ever heard of the la bocca? it's one of those weird-looking sculptures in italy that when your hand is placed inside it's mouth and said a statement, it could produce an outcome as to who you are. oooh, freaky.ü anyway, there's this weird modernized version of it at almost every funshop, i tell you. i tried my luck a few weeks ago, and here's what:

>>you stand well to physical exertion<< wakeke, oh, how true are the fallbacks of this, but yeah. steeg.ü

>>you easily lose yourself in the joys of spirituality<< oh, yeah. YFC here.ü

>>you may encounter heartaches and deception a few times in your life<< and how i wish this wasn't true, but it is.

>>you encounter money problems but easily get to manage<< oh, yeah.ü

>>a bit of exercise and regularity may keep you away from the problems you are prone to physically.<< aheehee, wut exercise? =p

hoohoo, steeg.ü

~JaNi23

*steeg shoes*

Sneakers

What kind of shoe are you?

harhar, i knew it!ü
~*princessa