:(

i have summer fever in my system. for once, i am not happy about it.

here come those big "WHAT IFs", come sunday (april 1) and i don't even know if i'll be seeing him on the 2nd. call me lame, but i do miss rob even if we've been together just hours ago. what if he'd be forced to have summer in cavite? what if they won't even return his phone? what if? how if? when if? if, if, if?


i'm scared. and as everyone may know, i miss too much. :( and it hurts when you love too much.



i just love him so much.

..

it's 4:43am and i still can't get the sleep i need.

just think about summer that'll come. seems fun, right?


i'm scared. i'll miss rob terribly. i still do now. :'(

*summer*

pathetic. would you believe that i was counting the days 'til summer 2007 just last june '06, and now it's nearing... syeht. now i know why old people always said to be careful what to wish for. :(

it's been quite a while since the last summer i remembered to be really happy about it, and it is for me second best next to christmas (which makes me think about christmas again). i really dunno why summers have been quite dragging lately, and well, quite sad. it's not really that sad.. but i have been accustomed to having the duck around to my every beck and call whenever and everytime needed. things'll change, and heck... we'll be facing a new world, soon enough.

it should be sunny, you know. it isn't. really.

it's just like those black and white films where they say goodbye in the middle part and feel so sad in the later middle part. but do they have happy endings? sorta.


it's just that mine doesn't have an ending. it's just about to start, and we're starting the start of everything else together. we just have to sacrifice lots of time apart to get where we should be, to prove the world wrong of what they think so wrongly of. it's going to be really tough.


but i just know we'll make it. we have to. we have a quota to meet, a settlement, and everything else in between.



love the world.
~*princessa

*blah-blahs*

i've gotten my neck heavy from un-pawnable metals. haha. some people say it's worth it, some say that it's kulang, some say it's sobra, some say, well... its okay.


i'l miss the last moments i'll ever spend in this month of march. that's why i'll truly savor it.



love the world.
~*princessa

*wah days*

i cannot believe how a stupid dragon could sell me to daddy... how shitty of her. some butthole she is. *barf*

and how siopaos like her could only prove how ceramic she really is. weird. i just assume she really IS made the way she should be. i thought all the while that she had thrown away all grudges against me and whoever away.



WTF, what was the red-letter given in the church for?! ang plastic niya ha..

anyway, we'll be having this useless recog day coming up.. so much for two hours under the sun with the same dragon and the bitchy teacher who almost ate my guts. dragons talaga.. waha. :))



love the world.
~*princessa

*dot, dot, dot...*

i, i mean we, have been through a lot lately and yet we still manage to keep our tempers up. just amazing. rob doesn't consider our petty quarrels as "quarrels"; rather, he considers those as misunderstandings: since quarrels lead to non-acknowledgment of existence for a period of time.

come to think of it, he is right. he is most of the time more right than i am, and i guess that'll be good grounding. i just love him so much and wouldn't trade him for anything nor anyone else in the world.





patayan na lang tayo kung ganoon.



anyway, i read mico's post in the friendster bboard.. the one entitled "10 things idiots do in friendster".. haha, that was pointy, i say. with all those dumb photo captions saying that people who posted those themselves go "omg, i look fat" or "omg, i look ugly here" are so like uh, err.. taena. shitty. why would they post such pictures if they hate themeselves in those? duh.




we bumped into darmie along recto last thursday and i do miss her. and i miss joen's pretty eyes and victor's paparazzi style and kaka's voice and joan's spontaneity and alex's kakulitan and sheryl's kalokohan and akiko's frankness and pecha's brains and kaye's wonderful soul-sister-like behavior...


i miss most of my friends. hope we can get together sometime.




and i've despised so many people in friendster from the b*tch from wherever part of the world to the horrible relative to the brainy malalandis to the claimers-that-claim.. well, inasmuch as i can't please everybody, they don't please me either. eew. even the newbie the dragonS (plural na in my vocabulary) oh-so-protect, she's one heckuva brainy bitch. now don't get me wrong, i don't hate her because i want to be like her. YUCK. she and her grammar and intonation and rawness? get a life. i'd rather be me.



and that is certification that i can be a possessive, selosa prick. i guess that's a bit okay, but ther selosa stint? not that i don't trust rob (i mean, i trust him with all my heart, FYI), but bitches will be bitches. raise your pricks, porcupine.



but still, i manage to keep happy.

love the world.
~*princessa