*31st*

this'll be the post for tomorrow.. hehe..ü

i love 2007, and it will soon be a fragment of the many memories i'll keep. the year supplied me with lots of emotions that were really memorable. there were lots of misunderstandings but still had the drive to fix them immediately. there were the super twins who now consider us untouchable. school days. coping days. super-broke days. mothsary days. 1st anniversary day. happy days. all of those were just wonderful.ü

this time, i'll really strive to be happy.ü

and lots of decisions shall still be made. patience, patience.

thank you for 2007. Ü

*blah*

you pick up the pieces, and the magic is lost..

wlalan.

anyways, it's the 24th..

i'm showing myself some love, for a change.. sometimes, it gets complicated when you love a lot of people then you tend to forget yourself.. then you blame them in the end for not getting enough. tut-tut, royalty, the world is yours.

i lacked a lot of love lately for myself, and i still lacked to those who expected more from me.. i'm sorry, i so am.. but sometimes, things don't and can't always be the way we want them to be.

i'm gonna make rob stick with the haircut at least until later than january 2nd.. heeheehee :P

i love the holidays.. always did, always will.♥
love the world.

*blankey*

wla lang, blank kase eh. mgugulat ka kasi ngaun din lang naman aku ng post ng purong filipino. wala kasi sa sistema ku ang galing sa pagulat sa filipino.. baluktot aku mgfilipino, pero eto na nga.


sa hinaba-haba ng biyahe papuntang recto sa tren, ngaun ku lang naramdaman ung pakiramdam na mag-isa lang aku.. kakaiba anu? kc araw-araw na gnawa ng Diyos eh karamihan dun eh mag-isa lng tlga aku.. kabad3p. malapit na nga ba kase ang pasko? mainit ba kase ung sikat ng araw dun sa may likod tas malamig ung aircon? ewan ku ba, pero tlgang kanina ko lang ndama na mag-isa na nga lang aku..

gumising din aku kaninang umaga na inaasahan kung nakatulog aku.. pero simula ng 11:00pm hanggang 7:00am, parang lumilipad padin ung utak ku.. ngaun lang un.. teka, ndi lang ngaun un, nagsimula un noong dec.15.. hay, ilang araw din un, na para akung lasheng (although ndi ko pa naman naexperience malasheng) an ewan.. bsta.. hanlalim nun).. kumbaga para akung tulog na gising na ewan..

lapit na pasko.. anlapit na tlga.. mgging msaya kya para saken? cguro, sana.. eh para dun kya sa mga taong dapat maambunan ng tunay na sigla ng pasko? sila kaya? yung mga ndi pa nakakadama ng noche buena, ung mga uwian at reunion ng pamilya, ung mga paskong agahan.. kung ba't ndi ku naisip un agad. :(

sana naisip ku man lang un at kung ba't kase inisip ku na agad ung kapakanan ku..

hay naku.. sana nga, sana..

*once upon a time*

i miscalculated the time i had to wake up, take a bath and traveling time for today. now, i'm stuck in limbo.. i mean, the computer shop. i can't go home, y'know.


christmas nears.. i'd rather be friends with an old enemy rather than an old flame.. grose. ehem, the "christmas elf"? haha. burn, baybeh.. >:D


on the other hand, i still can't get a grip of the psych project.. darn it.

life is uh, mundane? i can't say that it is at the moment since my head's quite malfunctioning. ehk.

i miss you, doodlebug. i always do, kid style.

*blank*

these are just one of those days- err, weeks in which i wish what i shouldn't wish not.


for whatever reason, this week in particular has been very heavy on my nerves. is it my temper? (one should call it dystemper, the one of the dogs :P) or my patience? rather, the world that surrounds me? i dunno, i really don't. my patience has been running thin on me and everything and everybody else, when the fact is i try to be more lenient than usual, more lenient than ever. sigh. :(

i wish i didn't go to school today, yet i wish i just did. i passed off roast chicken for lunch at home just to get to school in time for my 1pm class at guess what: 12:40pm! the dumb jeep i rode from quiapo didn't stop at the post office, it stopped at the city hall! inaway ku nga, ampeste kase eh. i love my stupid psych class.. but couldn't seem to find where they're "classing"!!! my gawd! my stomach's churning, thanks for the support, but i don't even seem to have the drive to eat. horrible, horrible day, horrible, horrible week.

sometimes i just wish i was alone once again. lightning hit me right now if i wasn't telling the truth.. no worries, no obligations, just free me. it's just sometimes, people take you for granted; that everything'll be all right at a snap of a sorry. it's not always like that, you know.. it'll never be. i bend, i mend, try to understand amidst my uncontrollable bitch fits and super-short patience.. i know that this may sound selfish, but sometimes i think i'm the only one doing the dirty work.










i love you so much duckie, and i wouldn't trade you for the world. but sometimes, things point to the idea of me wanting to have my own world back just yet.