*life and the atkins-way-of-eating*

i am now two pounds heavier. thank goodness.ü and now i know that i have mom's metabolism. i have gained cheeks and an inch on my butt. haha.ü and i can still eat the ref. nyar.ü

i am now in limbo. funny me. i know how life can be a pain in the butt sometimes, and how it can sometimes can't be yours. that you have to give up something in order to have another. you can't have everything all at the same time. you constantly love in order to make things okay, but don't. you have to accept everything, or else not doing it will only make your heart more prone to these things.

i do not regret the past; i have every second of it... but i do learn. but sometimes, unconditional love is something that not all people will understand.

and so life goes on...

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me...

i miss.
~*princessa