*weird*

today is the day that i can never forgive myself for being in such a mess. *sigh* mean day, mean peeps, mean everything! *sigh* oh, this day is just as freaking gloomy as i am.

i have made a mistake for practically beating myself up for expecting too much. or did i? maybe we do come to a certain point in a freaking life that sometimes, life is just darn unfair. do i feel what i really feel for this person? or is he just a springboard-slash-trampoline so that falling wouldn't be that hard. does he really care? i wish. if he really did, why wouldn't he just change the world so that it would be a bit more digestible... if that's what you call it. *bLeh*

do i still love pez? that's just one big question i leave the majority of the world to answer. practically weird, but yes, that's what i can say about this all. and for the record, does he still feel something back? i dunno. i wish he did. sometimes i pray he would. blah. nevermind. he wouldn't care anyway.

~*princessa